I realised some ppl, in regardless, just find joy in bring others' reputations, or image down to the ground, EVEN if the other party is in good terms with her... y bother to create disagreements or arguements in a team when u r part of them??? doin this doesnt make u feel better, respected or even benefit a single bit to u!! i would just call this as childish acts... by finding enjoyment in such a way.. the best part is ppl think tt u r an angel, when u are actually a devil in disguise..

since ppl are complaining tt i haven been bloggin... so im here to clear some dust away from my blog... lolx... has been think hard abt my future... wat am i goin to do and to which direction i will be heading... frankly speakin im not sure how long i can go thru this... but anyway, i saw a glimpse of light in front... haha... shall keep a secret on where i will be heading in future 1st bcoz i haven gt a rope to get up there yet... haha....
things has been happening... i must really thanks a person who is there whenever i need a listening ear or someone ard... thanks for being there for me n thanks for being my fren... i guess im not able to give anything in return... im really touched... really...im glad tt i know him there... =D

i love this song...

终点 - 关心妍
回到我们开始的地点
还记得那一次也是雨天
你紧紧地把我抱在怀里面
说你会一直爱我到永远

诺言还是敌不过时间
转眼间爱已经走到终点
无法面对你的借口和欺骗
我看到了你亲吻她的脸

我的世界一天一点为你改变你没发现
我所有的付出你看不见
我闭上我的眼最后一次吻你的脸
你真爱过我就不要说抱歉

我的爱一天一点在你的世界里搁浅
我已明白爱情有多危险
祇要过了今天就会爱自己多一点
我的世界里不会再有你的誓言

starting anew...
changes..
a new self..

this is wat i've got from tarot on facebook:

星星 - 希望 (正位)
塔羅牌義
在黑暗痛的天空中，有著一點點星星，給人帶來希望。在星星下的少女正在為生命灌入新的力量，是第14張牌"節制 - 淨化"的廷續。
愛情運勢
你會遇到理想的對象，並開始一段甜蜜的戀情。你們豪不吝惜地盡心付出真愛，親密的友情會同時轉化為心靈和精神上之愛。

haha... saw it saw it?? heex.. I hope so... n i would surely love that it will be him la... haha... he went there for the 2nd day only... n... im missing him like dunno wat la.... counting down... since its after 12am... i shall count it as 4 more days... faster... hahax...

i siimply hate myself... told myself ample times tt not to lose my cool n change! make some changes on myself b4 reachin there... everything was fine fine UNTIL something happens... i was at the peak of it... n it blows.. everything was worse... i know tt she say all those jus tryin not to make me feel bad... but... i cant 4give myself... i really think tt im a failure... fail to be a person.. for every aspects of my life... even up till now... i nv think i have suceed in doin anything.... i nv think tt i have excel in anything nor ppl giv me recognition of wat i've done... i jus have the urge of withdrawing myself out from this whole lot of places even my home n look for a total whole new place to start my life all over again.... nothing familiar... jus... new...
but hopes are jus only hopes... i am not able to put behind all my ties and responsibilies and walk off... if i really do so... den i am not even fit to be call as a person .

seriously.. i miss the times when i am working at uma n ajisen... carefree n enjoys... much funs n laughters... now... i really saw wat ppl mean by the "real" world... n... i hate it... i can no longer stay cool on sucha things... throwin tempers ard is not wat i wan... but is wat im doin now... no matter where.... sighs...
anyways... my bday is on the auugust 15th of the chinese calender!!! hahas... which is like next mth... tot of bookin chalets for 3D2N... but not sure whether can anot... thanks to those who has alr started to help me invite ppl even thou i haven confirm yet... hahas.. jus make me feel so so happy can.... haha...

jus something since i hasnt been bloggin since... like last 2 mths??

Your Aura Color is Red

Personality - With your self confidence, you live in the here and now. You like to experience the world through the taste, touch, and smell, and are happiest when working.

School - When confronted with a difficult problem, you face it with determination. You never let it go unsolved, no matter how long it takes to figure out.

Love - it can be hard for you to open up since you are very private person. You need someone secure who won‘t misinterpret your independence

Career - Your ideal job is one where you control the outcome and have something tangible to show for your work.

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Virgos adapt to different people and situations by finding ways to make themselves useful. To hide their vulnerability, they focus attention on what they're doing rather than who they are. To deflect attention away from themselves, Virgos will also focus on other people by praising their talents and virtues, or by criticizing faulty behavior or personal imperfection.

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My Love Language is AFFIRMATION

Your Love Languagse is "Words of Affirmation"

You love it when your partner appreciate you by saying words of affirmation

You love to encourage your loved ones by saying good things about her/him

For you, those miracle words heal the insecurities and make you feel truly loved

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